In recent weeks, I’ve received aspersions to my character, questioning of my intelligence, and other undeserved negativity. I’m a radiant, awesome, deep, heartfelt, kind, and insightful being, always pushing myself to improve, learn, love, and grow. I’m working through all this and trying to move beyond, despite all the loss that circles through my life.
I feel that this is an opportunity to affirm and express my gratitude:
I’m grateful for seeing that we all are lost from time to time but that the way out is to admit it and work through with humility and vulnerability, to reach out to any involved and those you hold dear. Self-righteous proclamations and stubborn intention just continue a lost path. I feel the call here of Socrates saying that he is wise for knowing that he knows nothing – question what you know. Don’t assert it. Being reminded of this is one of the greatest lessons.
I’m grateful for friends and being reminded that they are those who challenge you to be virtuous, i.e. live up to your excellence (à la Aristotle). They are willing to point out the things about yourself that you aren’t willing to hear and love you in spite of yourself sometimes (as we all sometimes struggle and act poorly). They do so much more than just support you. They are partners in your life’s changes. As such, they keep you honest and authentic to yourself and your path. If you are not open to their criticism, your friendship is not as empowering and vibrant as it could be.
I’m grateful to be reminded that you should not make decisions out of fear and pain. Even when life throws you hard challenges, choose from a place of love, hope, faith, and intention for what you want to work toward. Do not choose from a place of fear, desire to numb pain, and what you want to run away from. Choose hope, not despair.
I’m grateful for all the self-care routines I have developed over the years. Loving others and the world starts with taking care of yourself.
I’m grateful for my personal strength. It’s amazing what you can make it through if you’re willing to face it.
I’m grateful for my health, my heart, and my short time in this mysterious and beautiful existence. It’s really difficult to affirm our lives at times, given the struggles we undergo. It’s so easy to want to escape it all, but in the end, I choose to stand tall and proud, and like Sisyphus, I aim to affirm my lot and love my fate.
Be Well!
Gassho!

I couldn’t have said it better myself.
Nov 01, 2014 @ 00:39:26
Awesome post! I feel the same way. At one point I thought, wow, this could be written by me! Thank you for writing down your thoughts about gratitude 🙂
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Nov 01, 2014 @ 00:41:32
Thank you so much, Julia! I appreciate the affirmation! 😉 You have an excellent style to your own posts on your blog. Expect comments from me in the near future.
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Nov 02, 2014 @ 02:45:05
I am glad you wrote again. I just happened to check it this evening. Beautiful, important words. Thank you for sharing your insights and experiences. Oddly, they came at just the time I needed to read them myself (also your earlier posts). Keep writing!
– auch eine Kriegerin des Lichts
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Nov 04, 2014 @ 04:34:40
I’m glad that my posts came/come at the right time for you, Lexi. It’s good to know that my words and my own difficult experiences are helping to lend light and comfort to the path of an old friend. Be well! Keep certain of your own inneres Licht. Reach out if you ever need to talk.
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Mar 06, 2016 @ 18:15:26
Beautifully written. Thank you.
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Mar 07, 2016 @ 17:58:28
Thank you, JoHanna! I’d forgotten about this post so long ago. I’m glad that these words moved you.
Best Wishes,
Zack
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